Well I did it
I officially left my production job last month. I had been freelancing as a makeup artist for the last 27 years on huge ad campaigns and commercials. However, the last year my coaching business was growing by leaps and bounds and I found myself having to make a decision. I had to decide whether I was going to take the big leap, and leave what I have known for 27 years, that familiar, comfort zone that was my job and break free and entrust that what I have been working so hard at and building up over the past year was indeed possible.
So there I was, my “official” last day with this one director I had worked with for 10 years.. They called wrap, I packed up my kit , said my goodbyes.. and left.
As I sat in my car, I burst into tears. This had been my life for 27 years and even though I complained the last 15 years that I was “over it,” this was a HUGE part of my identity. As I walked out and said my goodbyes, instead of the cheers, hugs and speeches I had played over and over in my head on what the last day of entertainment work would look like, I got “oh, wow, good luck, bye” from people I had known for well over 10 years.
Some of these people I had worked with for for 10+ years and gone through my pregnancy, my divorce, and my second marriage. And yet, there I was sitting in my car crying because the goodbye felt so incredibly empty. I felt like I was singing “ is that all there is “ by Peggy Lee.
So for a few days I felt a little lost.
I was thrilled to officially call myself a full time coach but I was also feeling absolutely terrified. Thoughts like this popped into my head, “what if I made the wrong decision, what if I fail, and what if all my clients disappear?” Yet within an hour of my mean girl trying to take over my thoughts I received an email from a client that reinforced just how important my coaching is and the passion that I have for helping my fellow women. This email and her incredibly powerful words took over any fear I was having and I was able to embrace the fear and know that even though this had been my identity for 27 years, I’m still me, Alison.
Instead of fighting and pushing down my fears I was able to say, It’s okay, you’re allowed to feel afraid and a little lost. But remember, I’m here for you and you’re going to be just fine.
Now, in the past this would of reeled me into turning to food to comfort myself. Feeling uneasy was always what I dreaded the most, but having worked so hard to be okay feeling uncomfortable I had a great tool box.
So what are your triggers?
By identifying what takes you out of self-love mode and into fear or anxiety will allow you to create a tool box to tap into to use knowing that as uncomfortable as things feel right now these feelings will pass.
I talked about anchors in one of my past newsletters and that can be a huge help. However in the beginning of our journey towards self-love we often need a bigger tool box to get us grounded.
1. First, look for where you’re feeling it in your body. Then allow yourself to really feel it. YES this may feel agonizing at first but you will get through this I promise.
2. Now, give this part of your body where you’re feeling this emotion a name and ask it what it wants to tell you.
3. Now listen, without putting up a wall of fear, just be kind and curious. This part of you has not been heard from in a very long time and may feel a little shy so validate this part.
4. The answer may be “ I am frickin terrified, or what role am I playing now, or WTF!” Anything is okay…. Just let this part of you share what’s it’s thoughts and concerns are.
5. Now ask this part of you if it has anything else to share.
6. This is where it gets interesting. Ask this part of you that’s holding onto this feeling, what else besides eating will allow it to feel safe (or whatever feeling it is wanting through food)
8. Now there is dialogue and nothing is being stuffed down. You can tell this part of you that it isn’t being fired, that this is a mutual agreement to try something new that will create inner peace. If it doesn’t work, you will meet up and discuss something else!
This is magical my friends and it works!
Our body tells us things all day long but we often miss it. We feel unfulfilled and reach for food thinking it will fill us up, but you see until we look for what we’re actually needing ( it’s usually not food) we’ll keep searching through emotionally eating, spending money recklessly, drinking too much or whatever numbs us in the moment.
I know this can all seem new and possibly confusing so I want to offer you a free call with me to look at building that tool box!
You deserve the life you desire and I want to empower to to get it!
Wanna know more? Lets hop on the phone, it’s free and I would love to help you set up some action steps to get you feeling you’re best!
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